December 2009
2 posts
Updates from Mars.
daily rants now on blue-onablackweekend.
November 2009
31 posts
“I believe that two people are connected at the heart, and it doesn’t...”
Hold me in your arms.
wake up around the afternoon or evening, shower, dress up, go out, reach home after midnight, online, sleep when the sun has rise, and the whole thing repeats like a cycle. the very normal teenage routine during holidays. tsk. that’s what have been happening. well it’s stay home monday today. studied a little. prolly going out tomorrow.
eh eh nothing else i can say. only some personal...
You're a selfish narcissistic psycho freaking...
- and you can’t handle me.
annoying. annoying. annoying. i hate it when people play dumb. like, seriously. get a life. gah. i really do not like him.
well, have you ever, dislike this one person, and well, very much close to hate, but you just can’t leave that person, can’t ignore that person, because you just wish to tear him/her up and apart?
i am not a mean person. never....
Desperado, for today.
i am so fuckin’ bored. rape me, please?
December, how long more should i wait for you? i can’t wait any longer already y’know. i need to meet my hearthrob. haha. i know i am too much. but come home soon, please. and bloody text me ok. goodness. yay! *smiles from ear to ear* and i got to know his bestfriend too. we get along so well. super yayness! ha. why do i sounds so gay....
“Unless you’ve lived my life, don’t judge me because you don’t know, never have,...”
– Unknown
Don't take this personally, cause we were never in...
i feel like getting back to blogger. or, create a livejournal account. i feel weird creating post here about my daily stuffs, and my whatsoevers. will update you people if i make any changes :)
and oh my god. i miss a lot of people. i have been all alone these days. but i’m fine. hehe.
P.S Holly G, is Perfect ♥
Random.
Mom: ‘anisah.. anisah. makan, makan, makan. itu je kau tahu.’ Myself: *stares angrily at mom, and continue eating*
=.=v
i think i’ve gained some weight. i’m afraid to weigh myself. damn. run with me, anyone?
Nose Shapes and Character.
“If the nose of a woman is hooked like a parrot, she is good natured, enjoys fame, is clever and a well wisher of her family. A straight nose and of normal length makes a woman beautiful, wise, witty and diligent. A woman with a small nose is cunning, shrewd, mischievous and lustful. If the nose is depressed in the middle, the front part very high, crooked or very fat, then such a woman will...
Apologies are for the weak.
‘You have to forgive to forget, and forget, to feel again.’
teach me how to.
Could care less.
i think i can’t and i don’t believe in any boys or any men anymore. i have this mindset whereby those words that fall off their mouth are just words, being said just for the sake of saying it.
i have this feeling that every guy that’s gonna enter in my life, or those that are already in it, are all the same and just gonna do one similar job - trying their best to get my...
Self portraits.
have you, especially the girls, snapped so many self portraits at that one point of time, and only upload a few of them on the web? well basically, i am one of them vain girls. i swear i have like a few hundreds over of self portraits in my folder i have yet to upload. ha! super lazy. if i were to upload most of em, people may think i’m self obsessed, or i have nothing else...
I like it this way.
what is wrong with being single?
i don’t get it. why must they ask. what’s so wrong with it. i mean, yes, at times (which is rare), i’d love to have this someone by my side. but also at the same time, i love being in this current situation. i love being carefree. i love this freedom.
i love getting to do whatever things i want and like. no, i don’t mean that by going out...
Friendly face.
i envy people with ‘friendly face’. i really do. no, not you chacha. HAHAHA
sumpah aku tengah bikin ni website macam twitter.com. zzzzz. flyer tomorrow! with erwin. and, hilmi? i think. mwahaha. dunch knoe what to wearz. haiz. broke some morez. haiz haiz. shingz.
“A woman has a right to be the person that she wants to be. Relying on everybody...”
– Jenna Jameson
I say 'Go!'.
i get very very dumb and stupid when i’m sick. i’m so mad. i don’t even want to move.
Infinite X's and O's to you, charming man.
i can’t forget that smile. it’s in my head. it’s in my mind. it’s everywhere.
P.S god, finally. i’m straight. yay?
I would wear a dress for Obama.
Not a good November.
can’t wait for december’s arrival. nah, not cause of my birthday. most prolly i will be working on my birthday itself. major suckage much! not looking foward to it. oh and well, i can’t wait to, meet someone :) can’t wait. can’t wait. no, i’m not obsessed. yet. hehe! can’t wait. can’t wait. can’t bloody wait! heard me?
men with good...
Cakap tak guna, tembak tak kena.
fucking stressed up about next weeeeeeeeeek! school or RWS? can i, shut myself, for this whole month. please. ah fuck. i can’t find any solution(s) to it.
anyway, you know what? i’m fucking tired trying to ‘chase’ after people. ah, go and die. ok? i know i’m a nobody anymore. all i know, i did my part. so now, just do whatever you want. simple. anything, you know...
Crazy mind.
BOY: ‘I have something to tell you. Uhm. I.. I love you.’ GIRL: ‘Oh, really? I love what you love, too.’ *smiles widely and walks away*
“Girls are like apples. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don’t...”
– Pete Wentz
“Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you’re pretty,...”
– Sex & the City
Smokers are cool, but non-smokers are cooler.
i love the people who reads my updates. i really think they care for me so much :) and i can never thank them enough.
school was slack, and we decided to make it short. ha. not going school again tomorrow. i find theory a waste of time. teacher keeps repeating the same ol’ thing. come just for the sake of attendance. bah. but i won’t always do this. i know i can’t. just once in...
“I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances. And how it’s really just...”
– Scrubs
You're a square, you don't fit in anywhere.
someone just had to spoil my lovely morning. fuck you very very much ok? well anyway, i don’t know why i can’t sleep for long hours. even when i am totally exhausted and sleepy still, i will get awake at around nine in the morning, even when i slept very late. just, what’s my problem? -.- god bless me.
so the orientation thingy went well yesterday. cept that i came at 3,...
Try to find the magic.
look at my arm ): the color, the freakin color tone. anw some pictures uploaded at tagged and/or facebook.
so, i decided to go. well it wasn’t as great as live and loaded (as expected), but wasn’t that bad either. it was my first time watching this year’s SG idol, and after watching all of the performance, i fell in love with Mae Sta Maria’s voice. but soon after that,...
Chapped lips and blank expression.
i just woke up from my 5 hours of sleep. but i can still feel the shaggedness a little. well, i don’t know if i should follow keen for the sg idol tomorrow. don’t think i’am going. i don’t know any of the contestants name even. i don’t watch the telly, remember? bah. but it will be a good opportunity to feel the atmosphere and all. but i’ve been so tired these...
Full moon.
hi november. i know i’m a day late. but isn’t it very fast, guys?! bah. it gets scary thinking of the things i’ve done in this year. wait. have i ever done anything? i feel like i’ve been sitting down, not moving, and now it’s already november 2009, and i am turning 19 pretty soon. scary shit.
i can feel the rush, recently. being busy isn’t good when...
“Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world.”
– Marilyn Monroe
October 2009
30 posts
Baby are you down, down, down, down, down.
it was 10pm, and i just ended work. so i went to the ladies for awhile. when i came out, suddenly there’s this 25-30 year old malay guy (i hope i got it right. i suck at guessing someone’s age) approach me, while his friend (who looked much younger) was standing at the railing.
guy: ‘hi, can i ask you.. erm something personal?’ myself: ‘err ya?’ guy: ‘do...
I am a ha-ha-happy girl.
yesterday was great, and simply nice. cept for some parts. tsk. but i shall ignore it. went school as usual in the morning. then town awhile. went home. and as said, went to the clean and green event at hortpark. was such a bore. only the food was the highlight. love love the chocolate mousse.
after that, the fam picked me up. it was raining heavily. wtf. i was a lil pissed at something. but...
“A stupid mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won’t hurt...”
– Unknown
My heart belongs to me.
my head spinned like crazy after i took a short nap in the bus while on the way home, made me feel like vomitting, right till now. my body gets weaker as each day passed, i have no idea why. i feel like i’am pregnant or something. tsk tsk. duh, i was just kidding. you know that i’am VV. (VV = Very Virgin, if you’d ask)
my current project sucks. i don’t really understand...
The last straw.
i am so so hungry.
anyway, hello. i have been good, thank you. cept for my throat, but it is getting better, alhamdullilah. chillout on saturday was good. work on sunday was kind of ok too. highlight of sunday? LIVERPOOL 2 MAN UTD 0 hehehehehehehehehehehehehe!
school was good too today. urrrm, went to college east after lunch. watched the soccer match. college east vs college west. i think...
He needs a grrlfriend.
i’ve just done with vomitting. it hurts, like crazy. but somehow i feel relieved. so my body got weaker, and my nose and throat doesn’t feels good since morning. skipped school and accompanied mom to granny’s place in the afternoon, and i slept there the whole day. hate it, cause there’s always a lot of good foods at granny’s place.
meeting the usuals tomorrow. i...
You're gonna have to see through my perspective.
today was great. though i am almost down w flu. i mean, i can feel it a lil. hope it won’t get any worse. well i am trying to focus and get serious, but seems like time is telling me to sit still and chill. what’s up man?
looking forward to weekend. tarrrah!
P.S what’s the point of thinking of you? but i know you gonna be back soon. that’s for sure. you can never get over...
“As soon as you stop wanting something, you get it.”
– Andy Warhol
Reading and understanding.
i am absolutely exhausted. but i just feel like typing. i just need to. i can not hide this anymore. i hate this heavy feeling that i have been carrying around lately. it does not make me feel good. it’s not healthy. i really need to let it go.
I, AM PARANOID. yes, i am paranoid when people tend to judge me by the first impression. well, people always judge people by the first impression....
You're so tricky.
been a week, and school’s good. as always. one project done. another one coming up. i can’t play a fool like i used to anymore. and i need to improve on my timing. i can not always be late!
meeting keen later after her work. then maybe asfa later at town. i have no idea what will we be doing. no fast food, prease? and working tomorrow from 3 to close at tampines. wee!
but i still...
Too good to be true.
i think i miss you, a bit. a little bit more than i should. i feel like sending you a text, my fingers are itching so bad to press the send button, but, but.. no, it’s not my ego, it’s just that.. my pride won’t let me. y’know. half of me still feels good. but the other half feels like, you don’t care anymore? but that’s normal to me. i mean, that is normal for...
Effortlessly adorable, and that's you.
why is love always the greatest thing ever? it’s not fair for i am always unlucky when it comes to love. but you know, i do not really bother.
alright, i wanna pray, have a light dinner, catch some tv show awhile and go for a night jog. bye!